At times it feels like I’m inching forward on this journey when I really want to take it in leaps and bounds. There are times when I find myself asking the question ‘Haven’t I learned this yet?’ and then I have to laugh because I realize the purpose of that experience and then everything falls into place. Although it seems like the farther we get on our spiritual path the harder and more complicated things become as we try to fit all of the pieces together, the truth is the journey is easier and faster when we simplify, ask and receive. The power is in realizing that this is how powerful and connected we really are. Sometimes we try so hard that we make the process much more difficult than it really is.
I have had several interesting manifestation experiences lately and what I wanted literally appeared in front of me at the moment I decided that I was going find what I was looking for. First, I had to realize that what I wanted was right in front of my spiritual or energetic eyes, and then open my physical eyes and see it. In all cases, it was not only in front of me, I literally ran right into it. Had it always been there and I hadn’t seen it before? Was I so busy looking for it that I didn’t see it? What if the key to manifesting anything was to realize that it is already in front of us and then opening our physical eyes widely enough to see it?
I recently had a rather heated discussion with a friend who was trying to convince me that I was wrong about something. She was quite irritated that I would not agree with her because as far as I was concerned I wasn’t wrong. And I wasn’t trying as hard to convince her of my ‘right-ness’ as she was in insisting that I was wrong. This wasn’t about right or wrong, though, it was about truth. Any time there is a right or wrong in a situation, the real issue at hand is the truth, and whose truth is true.
Some people will go to great lengths to assert that they know best, they are right, and they know the truth. But truth is a funny thing because as much as we want to know ‘the Truth’, all we can really know for sure is what is true for us. Someone else’s truth is theirs alone. We may agree or share an opinion about it but truth, like beauty, is in the eye of the beholder. And when they ask us to validate their truth, what they are really asking for is validation that they are worthy of our love.
When my friend insisted that I agree with her, I knew it was personal and went far beyond me and this small incident. For her, it one more time that she had to prove herself and her truth and I was one more person who didn’t agree with her. Although I did agree with her, I just didn’t agree with her truth. It was very personal for her so I had to wonder who had made her so wrong in her life that she needed to hear me repeat her truth back to her. Why wasn’t it enough for her to know her truth and be comfortable with it? Because it wasn’t about her truth, it was about getting me to agree that it was true.
The journey of 2012 will be one that we will remember in many ways. For everyone, it will be an awakening into their greater potential but in ways that may not always be remembered as fun, pleasant or positive. Ascension is a promise and we are its fulfillment. How we fulfill it is the path we must decide on now. And as we say farewell to three months of emotional and spiritual dredging, we step into four months of deciding what we are going to do with what we have learned, then putting those decisions forward in the form of intentions that we can implement in our lives.
There are two big events in September, a Uranus-Pluto on September 19 , the second of a series that will end in March 2015. And a powerful full moon on September 29 in Aries that highlights this square. We can continue to search for answers or begin to implement the ones we have found to start making changes in our lives. The world around us is a question seeking answers; we are the answer. As we begin to see that we are either in a respond or react mode with the world, we can stay one step ahead of its changes so they reflect our energy, instead of us playing catch-up to what we see as an unending stream of chaos, control, weirdness and fear.
Wherever we are resisting change is where we can look more deeply within for the reasons. Our resistance is a treasure trove of information because within it lies our fears, where we are holding on to anything that we’re afraid to lose, or where we feel disempowered by the potential for transformation. When things ‘aren’t working’, is it because we’re not supposed to do that, or are we unconsciously sabotaging our growth and transformation? It’s a slippery slope as we learn to be in our power and step into our mastery.
Archangel Uriel ~ The potential of your life exists within the knowing of your heart and soul. Yet you use your mind to determine what is possible and its limitations prevent the highest potential from being available to you. It takes courage to live from your heart, where the true nature of your dreams exist, as well as the outcomes and miracles that can allow them to happen, because this requires an expanded vision of your life and potential that the mind cannot comprehend or envision for itself and for you.
The limitations of the third dimension are reflected in your life challenges, which are also the separation between divinity and humanity. In a divine world, the heart/mind partnership leads with love; in a human world, the mind leads by itself, with the emotional heart (also ruled by the mind) choosing the present based on the past. Living from the heart means choosing the highest heart aspects, the unconditional love and peace that are your divine birthright. Humanity’s birthright is karma and the potential for love, which is found in the heart through embracing and partnering with your divinity. The ascension path leads to incorporation of the divine when you can live from the heart and choose to express its energies, which exist beyond emotion.
Depression is something that affects more and more people today. It’s a word we use to describe how we feel when we are sad, listless, unmotivated, restless, and in worse cases, feeling hopeless, powerless, and useless. When we’re depressed it’s hard to get motivated to do anything and we can also be either very teary and emotional or feel dead and lifeless. And it is something more people will experience as we expand our energy fields because the more we become energetically aware and embrace ascension, the greater our risk of being (temporarily) depressed.
Does this mean that if we expand our energy field we risk being depressed? Absolutely, and for several reasons. When we are aware of new levels of energy, which means we have depleted our existing energetic connections, we create two separate energy flows. One flow consists of our own energy and the second flow is the new, higher level of energy. We get depressed because the higher energy levels compress our energy and make us very aware of its lower vibration. This process literally squeezes any limiting aspects out of us so we can know what they are (like being in a vise or like squeezing toothpaste out of a tube), which is why our life looks so dark and ‘bad’ when we’re depressed. We need to create a connection to the new flow by releasing the things that are lowering our vibration so we can integrate the new energy. The two levels cannot co-exist within us, we have to choose which one we will be at.
I bought a new computer last week, even though it’s Mercury retrograde and you aren’t supposed to buy electronic items at that time. But with the back to school sales and a tax free weekend, the price was perfect so I took the plunge. And I got a Mercury retro gift – I paid the same amount for my new as for my old one that I bought 5 years ago. Now I don’t like buying new computers because I get very used to my work equipment. It’s familiar, I have it all set up the way I like, and a new computer means doing that all over again. But my current computer runs so slowly that it’s impacting my productivity, its 80 GB hard drive is nearly full, it doesn’t have enough RAM to run many applications or internet pages and it’s slowing me down. So I had to change my thoughts, embrace the need for change and get a new one (moving me into a new dimension of technology).
I could have bought a new computer a few years ago but I didn’t need one as badly then and to be honest, I have gotten used to how slowly my old computer runs. Yes it impacts my productivity and it’s frustrating, but over time I have learned how to deal with it (sometimes by just shutting it down). So I’m sure that once I see how much faster the new computer is I’ll wonder why I put up with the old one for so long. There’s a short answer to that, I don’t like change. The longer answer is I got used to the way things were. And this is what we do to resist change until the need for it becomes so overwhelming that we don’t have any other choice. No matter how much we want change, though, the dimension and vibration we want to be in have to match our thoughts because it is our thought energy that creates our reality.
I was beginning to wonder if I was going to be able to write about August, if I’d still be standing, breathing, thinking or conscious. Some of what we experienced in July was quite powerful, exhausting, taking us to the edge of our internal abyss to let us see just how far we can be pushed so we can know how far we have come. Think about everything you have gone through since the late 1990s (or before). How much better do you understand these experiences now, how much more deeply do you relate to them and more much more quickly do you learn, heal, grow and allow them to help you transform?
August is a special month that begins and ends with full moons, a ‘blue moon’ month. These don’t happen very often and have extra completion energy. We have a chance to complete July’s energies by August 2, start something new in August and complete it by the end of the month. August will be a busy month but not for the same reasons we have experienced so far this year. Energetically, it won’t be so challenging, scattered and relentless. But that, of course, depends on where each of us is on our path. For some, the challenges of July will continue. For others, there will be a noticeable shift and a welcome change in the form of a slower pace, wonderful manifestation and a chance to start enjoying life.
One thing I have stressed in many articles about Indigo and Crystal children is how important it is to communicate with them. And this extends beyond talking, it is actually more focused on listening and knowing what to listen to and for. As a rule, Indigos don’t talk much and don’t like to talk about themselves so what they do share becomes very important, especially when we’re dealing with children who are depressed, using drugs, looking for their life path or are at risk. It can be very easy to assume that because they don’t talk they don’t have anything to say or don’t want to talk to us but that’s not true, we just need new listening skills.
I remember listening to conversations between my children and their friends and although they never seemed to say much to each other, what little they did say appeared to have a big impact. When I asked my son about it, he said ‘Mom, I know what he wants to say.’ So, what do your children want to say that they don’t have the words for? In my experience, the call frequency says a lot. If I hear from them more than once a week, there’s a problem and I ask about what’s going on in their life instead of waiting for them to get around to telling me. If they talk about how upset they are with world events, I ask what’s upset them recently. And if they ask about me a lot, they miss me and need some mothering.
We’re in a whirlwind of transformation now and future generations will talk the changes we are experiencing in the same way that we talk about similar periods in history. But while we’re in it, it can be fearful, challenging and we want to get through it as quickly as possible. These are the times that try our souls, but they are also the times that heal our souls because since the beginning of time we have been on a healing path. That is our primary life purpose and we live it every day. How do we find the healing? By looking for it.
In order for healing to occur we have to be in a healing space, asking the right questions, with an intention to accomplish it. We get anxious and frustrated with distractions, such as what’s happening to or around us, who is annoying or hurting us, who isn’t doing their work or standing in our way. But these things are all part of our healing path and when we try to get through them as quickly as possible, we’re missing our opportunities for healing, closure and release.
We can come out of hiding now because June has ended and while that is a relief, during July we will begin to see the effects of the massive energy shifts that were set in motion in June. These will continue throughout August and into September. Solar flare activity continues to intensify as we receive greater amounts of amplified radiation in response to our new levels of energy. Remember that children and pets feel these on a more intense level, so give them some extra calming attention during these periods.
On June 24 I felt that we were ‘rebooted’, which is the best way I can describe how a new paradigm was put into place. The structure has been built and now we get to furnish it. If you are feeling a little confused and unsure of where to start, just take a step in any direction. All of the pieces are in place and we have to overcome our hesitation to begin the process of deciding what we are going to become and how we are going to use our gifts. At this point, movement is more important than direction and intention is a more powerful choice than trying to make the right choice. We’re beyond that, anything we decide is OK. We cannot make any wrong choices now. With our move into greater self empowerment and self expression, we are allowing the energies to expand and shed more light on a world that needs it right now.
And in July we have a Mercury retrograde, which I feel will be less disruptive than others and a chance for us to take a breath and plan our next moves. Planets which have been retrograde for months are now moving forward and giving us the energetic support we need as well. This month has lots of creative energy which we need to use as our mission is to start creating the new earth as we want it to be, beginning with our lives. We are also being directed to consider who, how and how much we heal others and where our energy is going.
We know that our reality is entirely our responsibility. What is in it, how it unfolds, what we create and what we allow, tolerate and accept all reflect how we use our energy in the creation of each step of our life journey. But we have expanded the definition and scope of responsibility to include another aspect which makes being responsible a struggle and a burden to the point that we are willing to relinquish our power because we can’t face the responsibility we think goes along with it. The aspect we have added to responsibility is obligation, and it is an aspect of the martyred healer paradigm and a heavy burden indeed.
When we confuse responsibility with obligation we believe that we are required to not only see and feel energy, but we also have to transform it. And to some extent that is true. We are here to transform energy, but it’s our energy we need to transform, not that of others. We are here to empower ourselves and be an example of the light of God. The belief in obligation inspires us to literally take on the sins of the world and turn them into blessings. And then to also take on the energies of others and bless them too. Then we take on everyone’s opinion of us and try to make ourselves responsible for proving them wrong. And at some point we just stop because it’s too hard and we feel powerless.
Humanity is an evolving species whose path is moving from human to divine, from the third dimension, fixed in time and space, to multi-dimensional, universal awareness. This all takes place through the path of becoming, which is humanity’s evolutionary cycle that has taken it from light to dark and back to light, as humanity learns to become aware of itself as the embodiment of Source through frequencies of energy and light. But this is the bigger picture of a process that is continuously occurring within each of us because we go through cycles of becoming every day.
Each person and situation we encounter is part of our karmic path whose energy we transform as we move through our healing journey. We connect to everyone and everything through energy as we attract those frequencies that embody our healing purpose and we release them as we move through learning, healing, transformation and ascension. Then one cycle of becoming is complete and we move on to the next one. With each cycle we have the opportunity to transmute more energy into light, heal greater amounts of karma and move more quickly through our ascension journey.
The self plays an important role on the Path of Consciousness because it is through the self and its many different aspects that we are aware of our emotional, energetic and vibrational reality. Through awareness of the material self, our third dimensional, human self aspect, we are aware of our disconnection, fear and alone-ness in a vast Universe that we cannot control. But that is an illusion which lacks the element for transformation, enlightenment. To become conscious within our highest self aspects we can ‘enlighten’ the self, reminding us of our divinity and joining our human self into our spiritual self.
From the human perspective, being self conscious is where we are uncomfortable, recognize where we don’t fit in, are lacking in some way and are powerless, uncentered and grounded in a reality that lacks a foundation of spiritual truth. Through this type of self consciousness we see every fault and imperfection and how they are reflected in our reality. Being self conscious reminds us of our humanity and of how far removed we are from our divinity. This is our most powerless aspect and yet it is the one we use most often to interpret and navigate the world and our place in it.
But when we consider the many different aspects of the self, all of which can be expressed as different levels of consciousness, we can choose what we will be aware of and can then apply enlightenment to those areas. Are we weak and afraid? Enlightenment will release our fear and give us courage. Are we feeling undeserving and unworthy? Enlightenment will remind us that we are deserving and worthy of abundant, limitless blessings. Are we feeling unloved? Enlightenment reconnects us to our inner source of unconditional love and empowers us to be loving with ourselves, which attracts love to us.