Inspire Me Today | November 15 2012
What I have found through a tumultuous and difficult early life is that acceptance is the road to freedom.
Because of my inability to function “normally,” I was not able to fit in to mainstream society. In the eyes of the culture and consequently my own eyes, I was flawed. I tried over and over again to figure out how I was going to be part of society… get a job, an education, have a family. But no matter how hard I tried to think my way out, I always ended up in the same place. No different than I was.
The truth is, my mind was a liar and the strategies it created promising a different reality did not work. There was utter futility in trying to figure anything out in the hopes that something might change, but my mind kept on trying… planning, thinking, pushing.
The noise of this chatter inside my head was debilitating, always telling me that I was this or that horrible thing, and that I had to BE a certain way in order to survive and be accepted in this world. After years and years of this I was so exhausted that I finally gave up and fell into my broken heart. I was forced to accept my life as it was.
There is incredible freedom when you finally accept who you really are with all your flaws and incapacities. Somehow you realize that you are not those dysfunctions, that all those things that society labels you or thinks about you or even what you think about you, are not YOU.