Zen-Haven May 5 2013 (Thanks, Soren)

Life is becoming more sacred, more holy, more synchronistic, more spiritually sustaining every day. When the darkness increases, the light moves in its own evolution. As we renew our dedication, the possibility of a new heaven and a new earth, as promised, enters into the feeling of daily life. More than anything it is a feeling. I cannot see it, but I can feel the coming of it.

There comes, from time to time, a peaceful solidity within. We have to do the work on ourselves… I have to do the work on myself. That is the way, the only way… know yourself, clean house, and learn to love.

Last night I was caught in hell, in my own mind, and I wrestled with it and won.

Various scenarios of the end game were playing out in my mind, and it became a repeating cycle. My imagination went to this possibility, and then to that possibility, and on and on in a loop: back to A and then to B and then to C. Fear had gotten a grip, and it dawned on me… I’m caught! I turned on the light thinking, “This is not me! How do I get out of here?”

I took step one: allowing. So what if we die as long as we have lived our light; as long as we have processed our darkness. So what if any one of us dies. We are here to evolve… life is sacred… it is our opportunity.

I began to coach myself. Hey lady, you’ve been here for a while now and there is a lot of experience under your belt. Have faith in yourself, faith in the light, faith in your GPS. Aloud I said the words, “You step out of hell with faith.”

Then I thought of music. I decided to play music to change my thoughts and change the vibe of the room. I played Stuart Wilde and Richard Tyler’s Avalon Protection Prayer. It’s a vibe changer. It takes you to nature and her beauty like a soft breeze does, or the rustle of leaves, or a bird song, or the fragrance of a flower. Life is holy. We are nature. Peace, be still.

I was emerging from the loop, and I began to see it more clearly. Everything on my mind was fantasy… none of it was real. It was all fear-based imagination, projecting myself into a painful future. How do you change negative imagination? Use your reason and look back. How many times have synchronistic circumstances taken me toward liberation and away from pain? I can’t even count the number. They thread through my entire life.

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