
As usual, I went into my dressing room and sat down on my stool before the bathroom counter and wash basin to begin my ablutions. I felt a deep sense of sadness and despair (which has not occurred in a long time).
It has been many years since I have done this: however, speaking to AA Michael, I said, “It has been a long time since I have felt this way, I really need some insight. You know, I really want to stay and complete whatever it is you wish me to do. However, not this way. Not with all of this constant turmoil within my mind and body. I feel like I’m losing control of myself.” Continue reading