Nancy Leila Ward – Feeling so out of sorts. I don’t know what to do with myself. So many things to do and no motivation. I feel paralyzed by events in the world. I can’t bear to listen to any of the stuff going on anymore – the YouTube tarot readers, the news sources.

I have hit a wall. I can’t take hearing about the assholes who are running things and what heartless idiots they are. I need to replace this focus with other things.

Audiobooks… music… art… Nothing feels right. I went for a walk with the dogs. It is so dreary and cold out. We haven’t seen the sun in days and days… weeks… a few glimpses here and there, but that’s it. So heavy. I feel like I’m turning inside out. Roiling inside… I just want to be transported so I’m sitting here writing this and going within…

Anything?

Anyone??

The heaviness, the dreariness has seeped into my bones.

I want to escape the heaviness of the world.

[After I wrote this, I chose to work on a painting, which helped, because I was in a state of not caring about getting it “right” or creating a perfect image. This morning, I opened to channel and this message came through.]

You are being affected by the energies that move through the sun and send waves throughout your solar system. The Earth is in perfect placement to receive these energies. It is a pulsation, like contractions in the birthing process. It is crumbling certain energetic structural elements that were set in place eons ago. I

t reaches in and expands. This is happening to humans, expanding you from within to assist you in letting go of beliefs and patterns set in place through the ancestral lineage.

Groups of people hate other groups of people because it has always been that way. This is a dark inheritance that is being infused with light. It is causing rage and the lashing out of that which wants to hold on to the status quo. But that is impossible.

Love will prevail. Just remember that love will prevail in the maelstrom of chaos that is being created by the influx of the energy that is being sent from the center of the Universe.

So, when this energy hits, it can make you feel uplifted and buoyant, or it can make you feel so heavy that you can barely lift your feet to walk across a room.

It freezes you in a space of suspension in the true timelessness of existence. As the darkness is awakened within humans – because you are all connected – you feel other’s struggle with the duality and what you are doing is holding the line, as it were, you are holding the energy in place as others go through a struggle of the dark night of their souls.

It is like you are tethering the new energy within yourself and you also touch in on that struggle that others are having. It is pure energy, not an emotional aspect you can name, just pure energy and it can flatten you. And so, when this happens, you can surrender to it, knowing that you are actually assisting in the enlightenment of Humanity and Earth.

Often you have trouble remembering that it is happening on a grand scale, it is not necessarily personal. We will help you to remember that you are holding the energy for others as they go through the crumbling process.

Many reading this remember your own process of awakening, where your reality was crumbling from within, your beliefs and patterns falling away, exposing where the darkness was tethered within you.

Like an open wound, exposed to receive healing, it can be very painful, even terrifying at times. But you have moved through those moments with the help of the wisdom of others who have gone through the awakening, and with the help of your guide team and the energy of pure love.

So, when you become flattened by the energy, surrender to it and know that this is part of the great change on this Earth. Meditate on love, allowing love to be within your experience. And when you are feeling uplifted by this energy, radiate it outward, for you are like a flower of light pulsating love out into the collective consciousness of Humanity.

This is the part you all play in the ascension of the Earth and Humanity into expanded octaves of experience where harmony and love prevail.

We are with you, you are not alone.

Blessed Be.

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SF Source Integral Soul Nov 2023